Oops.....

Well kinda fell off the whole blogging thing a little bit!!  But after reading some inspiring blogs I decided to give it a try again!

This time I want to use this as a motivation tool.  I'm ready to loose some weight and start working out again.  And I know everyone will be thinking..."oh here she goes again!"  and thats ok because I'm ready to prove them wrong!  Hopefully...

We've had a lot going on in our little life.  We recently bought a house and are enjoying being homeowners.  Our relationship has been a little rocky and rough...but things are getting much better and hopefully they continue to go that way.  No one said marriage was easy right?

I'm also on a mission to re-do our living room into my junk gypsy inspired room.  But I see pictures and think...hey thats super cute I think I could do that...then I try and my mind just goes blank.  So might post some progress pictures of that also!! Little bit of everything. 

Well Greys Anatomy is about to start and I have 3 super cute kittens on my lap so my night is set :) 

Until next time!

Well..time to get back on track!

That was the view outside of our apartment a few days ago...the most snow I think we got all winter!

It's been a couple of rough days food wise for me..kinda got off track and spent a few days eating more junk then I should of...part of it I think was that I ran out of groceries.  Well, not completely, but I didn't have anymore fruit or any healthy snacks to snack on!  So Jimmy Johns was realllly looking good!  But now I've taken my trip to Aldi and re-stocked the fridge and pantry.  I am all set.  So now time to get back into the swing of things and get back in the gym and watching my food.  I'm down to the lowest weight I was almost a year from now..before I gained half of it back.  Blah.  Heading in the right direction though!  Oh and I got to run 2 miles outside the other day...looove running outside. I literally smile while I run...it's great.  It was 53 degrees and sunny...thank you Minnesota for making it a short winter for us this year :)  Here's to running in the sun and loving it!  Going to start fresh and enjoy it!

Slowly Adjusting

I've been keeping track of my meals I eat daily and how much water I've been drinking and what not (I use http://www.sparkpeople.com/ which is a great site!).  The water thing wasn't that big of a change because I've always drank a lot during work so now I'm just getting used to drinking it at home (our Brita filter thing has been amazing for this...I like cold water).  I went grocery shopping for myself for once...got some different fruits that I normally wouldn't get (pears and peaches), and had our dinners all planned out so I knew exactly what I needed to get.  And tried not to stray to far away from that.  I'm horrible at snacking so I got some foods that I could snack on that were much healthier for me!  I've also been taking a glass of water with some apple cider vinegar mixed in....now this is probably my only weird diet thing I'm doing...but it's not just for weight loss (it says that may help decrease your appetite a little before you eat), but it's also says it's good for your skin and health in general.  I got the raw unfiltered stuff so it's kind of potent stuff lol.  But I just plug my nose and drink at least 2 glasses of it throughout the day.  If you want go ahead and look it up on google and see whatcha think!  Anyways...well the hubby just brought some lunch home!  Yay :) I'll write more later!

And so it starts :)

That's right.  This morning I got up at 9:00 (got to sleep in for a little while) and got right up and went out and ran 3 miles :)  OUTSIDE.  In the middle of Feburary.  In Minnesota. Loved it!  Had to get used to breathing in the cold air but it felt so gooood to be outside exercising.  I thought I was going to get a little cold just wearing a sweatshirt but turned out I'm glad I didn't add on anymore layers.  Learned I tend to run farther before I eat breakfast in the AM.  Which is going to be easy for me on the weekends...not so much on the weekdays..so we'll have to come up with another solution. 

So anyway I feel refreshed and ready for the day.  Also told Riley my weight loss plan..again lol.  But he's supportive and will hopefully help me out a little.  It's been tough because he wants to ADD weight..and I want to lose.  So sometimes our nutritional needs are pretty different.  We'll make it work though :)  Anyway here's what my breakfast looks like after my great morning run :)

Old fashioned oatmeal (so much better made on the stove), sliced up apple, and brown sugar :) YUM

Here we go again...blah

Today is the day I'm just fed up.  Fed up with this whole losing weight thing.  I'm so tired of starting over alllll the time.  I need to work on my self control and self confidence majorly!  I'm tired of walking around the mall and not looking up at anyone because I'm embarrassed of myself.  I want to be able to buy cute, girly clothes that actually fit me!  I'm tired of being scared to try on clothes and worry about stuff fitting or not.  I'm tired of feeling like crap about myself everyday.  I'm just tired. 

I really need to motivate myself yet again.  It's getting close to summer and warm weather and I can't hide behind my sweatshirts and long sleeves any longer.  I want to be able to wear shorts! I haven't for years because I don't like the way my legs look.  I'm ready to have confidence in myself. 

So from this day on..I'm going to ACHIEVE my goals FINALLY.  I'm determined because I don't deserve to feel this way about myself.  Every little step now is going to be towards the right direction!  Wish me luck!